Category Archives: Transformation

On New Beginnings or A Tale of Dancing Into 2016

Red onion skins and New Year’s Eve have much in common –-
they both peel away to reveal new vibrancy.”
Alex Morritt

2016 is here and I’m ready for bigger and better things.  “Wait,” you say.  Where have you been Kenny? There’ve been no blogs for many, many months.”  Well. I’ve made several career changes this year, directed an outstanding production of Shakespeare’s “A Midsummer Night’s Dream”, and fought tomato blight.  OK, we’re all caught up.

To begin again, 2016 is here and I’m ready for bigger and better things.  To do this, I’ll need to make some huge changes in who I AM — who I’ve become or as my guru, the Beatle, George Harrison puts it, I’m in need of “regrooving.”

George

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”
Mark Twain

At the opening of each New Year, we stand on the threshold to view the vista of a new beginning.  We see more clearly the possibilities that lie ahead of us – so many unexplored opportunities, so many paths.  Do we take the road less traveled, or trod the familiar path?  The choice is ours.  We are not shackled to the choices of the past.  We can, at any moment, let go of self-limiting thoughts, actions, and tendencies – the things that stifle the soul and hold us back from achieving our greatness.

“Awaken your habit-dulled spirit
to zestful new effort.
Rest not till th’ eternal freedom is won!”
Paramahansa Yoganada

Yogananda

Seize this opportunity – this new beginning — and feel renewed, refreshed, and start anew.  Begin by accepting the challenges each day, week and month bring.  Awaken your passion and grit to accomplish what you know is right and good and true.  Take up something you think cannot do and then do it.  Seeing the power of your tenacity will give you self-assurance and lend momentum to your will.  By doing this you will unleash the unlimited strength within you.

I intend to be more faithful in my blogging this year and share my journey with you.  Thank you for reading this and for sharing the trip with me.

I pray that you are blessed in this year and that you may bring to fruition your dreams and aspirations.

New year

On Out With The Old & In With the New or A Tale Of Embracing 2015

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An old year ends, and takes with it people and sorrows and joys and memories, and a new one is on its way.

Neil Gaiman

Can I lose 60 pounds in nine minutes? This thought runs through my mind at the close of 2014.

It’s been awhile.  I know.  I’ve heard from several of you over the intervening months, “When are you going to write again?”  “What’s taking so long?”  Honestly, I’ve been busy.  “Doing what you ask?”  Well, I was dancing on tables and creating art — hard fought art — among other things.

2014 was a year of great change for me. I went back to work, my brother passed away, I directed a great production, my favorite Great Aunt passed way and I met some awesome people. But if I’m being honest here I have to admit I will be glad to see 2014 pass.

I realize new beginnings can happen any day at any time. A new beginning always involves leaving one thing behind and embracing something new and different. However, sometimes, new beginnings may not be of our own choosing or liking. New beginnings often are exciting, yet terrifying — no one knows what the future holds. Unlimited possibilities lie behind the door to your new beginning: successes and failures, ups and downs, and even some smiles and frowns.

Since I do not know what’s behind the next door or written in the next chapter of my life, I know it’s important to utilize tools at these pinnacle times in my life. These tools give me the strength and courage to aid me in adjusting to a new chapter in my life.

What’s in my tool box? Well … a positive attitude, and yes, sometimes I have to fake it, openness to new people and new experiences and an open mind, vulnerability so I can see into the shadowy parts of myself and grow in new ways, persistence because sometimes it just takes time and my wonderful support system of friends. But, the most important tools in my arsenal are magic, dreams and madness. In other words, you have to think outside the toolbox sometimes.

May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year you surprise yourself.”                                                                                                                                                                    Neil Gaiman

 I have great hopes for 2015. Yes, I feel the winds of change are blowin’ by. I don’t much have more to say on welcoming in 2015 other than this last bit of advice that was passed onto me: I hope that in this year you make mistakes. Yes, that’s my wish for you and for me to make new mistakes, wonderful, glorious, amazing mistakes.   Oh, and whatever it is you’re afraid of doing, do it.

 

On To Tango Upon Chiron or A Tale Of Dancing With God

planets_300_300“All motion begins in God and ends in God.  The universe is engaged in a whirling flow of change and activity. This is God’s dance. We are all dancing with God and God with us.

I’ve come under fire of late.  Yes, I’m experiencing my own Duck Dynasty moment. Friends of mine, deeply spiritual friends, who define themselves as wounded Christians, have been very critical of my speaking openly about attending mass. To them it is a slap in the face since they have a negative view of Christianity.  Not to be outdone, friends who identify as Christians have been very critical of my chanting and practicing kirtan.  I’ve been told it’s idol worship.  To both groups I roll my eyes.

My devotions and practices are mine.  While we are all created in God’s image, God is also created in our image.  I believe I have forged a distinctively personal path of spirituality that places the uniqueness of the individual, in this case me, at the center of his or her own spiritual universe with God — a spiritual partnership so to speak. Feisty and invigorating, yet deeply personal and self-revealing — this is my approach to my inner life and my relationship with God.

This is my dance with God.

dancing godThe scriptures are filled with stories of dancing. These dances are not planned, scripted ballets but improvised songs of freedom, hope and joy. They aren’t performed by trained and seasoned professionals but are initiated in the joyful celebrations of people to their God.

These raves of God are edgy and innovative – raw and spirit filled. They are the dances of the people, the seeds of raw potential, born not out of the exactness of ritual but in the spontaneity of the Spirit – filled with the rhythm of life.  The dance of God is the dance of the cosmos, the interrelationship of Creator, created (you and me), and life itself, the holy creativity of the All in All.

The dancing metaphor of all life is envisioned and embodied as a circle dance. The dance of the divine is moving, active, eternally both transcendent and immanent, and flowing together in a joyful and harmonious, rhythmic and resonant celebration of life. The great Artist of eternal life dances with the child and the Divine Mother. Each dwells in the other, outside of and within the created world.

The Christ, the Lord of the Dance, is the physical embodiment of the sacred dance of life, the incarnated vision and rhythm of the artistry of God. Whereas the Trinity is the music and the composer, the Christ is the one who calls to us to “come and dance” and promises that we need never lose the rhythm of the dance.

The Lord of the Dance takes the lead. Our role is that of the dancing partner who has the courage to get up from the safety of sitting and spread our wings into the unknown. In joining the dance, we break free of some kind of social sheath and give others the courage to follow their passion.

As we join the Lord of the Dance the Spirit becomes a whirling life force, becoming aligned with and at one with God and ourselves. The implication of this dance is that all persons dance a dance of mutual love, breathe together the breath of life, and pour out to one another in mutual giving.

Believe only in a God who would know how to dance.

We are all of us invited to the dance, though not all join.  But look what happens when we do. We fall into sync with the rhythm of life. The rhythms of the Universe echo within the music of the spheres until all are singing and dancing together in a beautiful and diverse harmony.

The time is now, and the dance is eternal. Don’t sit this dance out. Life is moves quickly. Buds burst in fragrant spring; fruits delight in fertile summer. Leaves change colors in autumn. Trees fall in whitened winter. Dance while you can. The world doesn’t need more conversations so much as it needs more dancing. When “heart speaks unto heart,” what comes next is less a conversation than a waltz or a tango, with all its unexpected twists, turns and dips.

The soul’s dance occurs both in the earthly here and now and in the heavenly beyond. The celebration of rebirth, beauty and hope surrounds and permeates our life. Harmony prevails in every step we take with God and with each other. We are lead in a new dance of human connection under divine direction.

The dance of God is a dance of love that moves and flows through the ins and outs, ups and downs of all of life’s joys and travails. The circle of our dancing is a powerful movement of shared compassion).

Too often in our spiritual life, we want to give dance lessons, to be the judges of dance competitions. I won’t be judged in my dance with God.  The Lord of the Dance can never be directed or contained. To join the dance of spirit, we need to break out of our square lines and ballroom boxes and let the spirit draw us in. The dance is a dance of unity of sound and sight, a unity of those who believe, and a unity of God and his creation.

And now, as Lawrence Welk used to say, “A-one, an-atwo.

 

On Nightmares & Adventures or A Tale of the Virgin Blogger

My blog, my very first blog post.  My nightmare and my adventure.

I never thought I would find myself at 51 fat, unemployed and single.  Honestly, I never thought I’d find myself to be 51.  51 — my  nightmare and my adventure.

Fear not.  While I never thought I’d find myself to be 51, I have found myself at 51.  More accurately, I have started to find myself at 51.

As part of this process I have decided to write and share my journey thru this year and beyond. My journey of inner and outer transformation, my journey of self-discovery and ultimately this amazing journey of getting to know myself again and finding my core.

I don’t know why I feel the need to share this journey publicly.  I’ve always been a private person.  Perhaps I want to feel relevant in a quickly changing world.  Maybe I want to be held accountable for my actions and what I accomplish going forward.  Or maybe I just want some encouragement and a pat on the back every once in awhile.  Whatever the reason, I want you to join me on this crazy, exciting trip.

So today, I start eating healthier.  Today I start exercising.  And, most importantly, today I start spending more time in silence, listening to God.

I want to thank Tommy C for his encouragement and guiding hand, Jamie V-R, for her support and positive attitude, Ben at Stellar Blue for the tutorial, Susan & Bala for their unwavering faith in me, and to  Scott H, Kristine A & my beloved Rachel K for the gift and blessing of your friendship.

Lastly, thanks to all of you for reading my blog.

Bhole Babaji ki Jai!